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Theater of the Absurd :iconblacckard:blacckard 1 3
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'Broken?' :iconblacckard:blacckard 1 0
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Endless Elliptical Ennui :iconblacckard:blacckard 1 0
Embroidered Cigarette by blacckard Embroidered Cigarette :iconblacckard:blacckard 0 1 Circle-a by blacckard Circle-a :iconblacckard:blacckard 0 2
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Getting Twitchy :iconblacckard:blacckard 1 1
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The Tradeoff Between Strength and Resilience :iconblacckard:blacckard 2 0
The Beast in Every Man
At the back of my mind, the beast is howling
Baying for that which it thinks I owe
Through the dark spaces, a monster is prowling
Screaming for things I choose to forgo
Millions of years of unchecked evolution
Led to many desires I'd like to discard
Cold, heartless logic, my chosen solution
I had no idea that the path was so hard.
The problems of men aren't problems of thought
They're born of feelings and emotions
But it's hard to surpass, when we are all taught
To give room to our weakest of notions.
(Of course I'm no better, won't claim that I am
But I will point out that I will try
To challenge the mighty and free those they've damned
So much work to do, 'ere I die.)
How far must I go? What must I let pass?
I'm afraid to find out, lest I falter.
Might there come a day when I, at long last,
Kill my humanity, on freedom's altar?
I fear I've ignored some wonderful things
While worried about "bigger pictures"
Though friends ofter comfort, the emptiness stings
and my soul has begun to fe
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You Never Just Smoke One
It was threatening to rain when she left town. I didn't clock it or anything, or even make an estimate, but I'd guess the downpour started when she hit city limits, going about seventy, heading south and, I guessed, out of my life. I couldn't have been happier about the rain, and I couldn't be more conflicted about her leaving. Y'see, I had a thing for her. I wasn't necessarily carrying a torch, of course. I learned not to pull that stunt fairly early in life. Knowing the two of us, it's more apt to say I was carrying a lit cigarette; you know it's not going to last forever, and the slightest mishap could put it out, ruin it, and leave it worthless. But you still carry it, 'cause damned if it doesn't feel good.
I never really felt like I had a chance with her. We spent a lot of time together, as she slowly lost other friends in the area. She always said she was cutting herself off from them, but I quietly disagreed. You can't cut yourself off from someone who wants to keep you close; t
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Untitled Song
He was an old man by twenty,
His manner was rough
In his voice I could hear
Fifty years worth of dust
But his eyes were still sharp
And his wit was still keen,
I asked him "Who are you?"
He said "What do you mean?"
I said, "You're a young man,
Not yet twenty-five,
But the set of your shoulders
Shows a half-dozen lives."
He sighed, and he smiled,
And he lit up a smoke,
Then laughed through the haze,
At some private joke.
"I've only lived one life,
But observed hundreds more,
Watched paths unfold at birth,
Seen Death closing doors.
In twenty-two years,
I think that I've learned
A hundred new lessons
From each bridge I saw burned.
Now there's folks say I'm wise,
Somehow old for my age;
That I passed up my peers,
That I'm on the next page."
Then he twisted his neck,
Cracking bones in his spine,
Said, "The truth, I'm afraid,
Is that we're all killing time.
But people like me,
Who can't simply rest,
Who seek the frontiers,
But can't find their West...
People bored by the things
So many hold
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Moondance :iconblacckard:blacckard 4 0
The Boy
    Growing up he was a really nice, happy kid. People who remember him from elementary school don't remember a smartass who looked at the world through a cynical and jaundiced eye. That's all well and good, and I'm sure a lot of people wish he had stayed that way. But while that kid was kind and loving, he was also weak and unstable. He actually cried. More than once. He was easy to take advantage of, and that happened fairly often. In short, the kid was a well-liked pansy, and he was not pleased with his life. Of course, being as young as he was, he didn't know that; all he knew was a general feeling of uneasiness, of being uncomfortable in his own skin.
    He did not know his place, his power, his eventual triumph over his weakness.
    He went to intermediate school, and he began to change. He began to read more than he ever had before, bigger books, books for high school and college students. He failed miserably out of a
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Watchers, Pt 6 :iconblacckard:blacckard 1 1
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Watchers, Pt 5 :iconblacckard:blacckard 2 2
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Watchers, Pt 4 :iconblacckard:blacckard 1 1
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Team Free Will Goes Exploring by ghostfire Team Free Will Goes Exploring :iconghostfire:ghostfire 320 20
The Color Plaid
The roses were red
The violets were blue
The dandelions, a yellow
The dirt, a strange hue
(But the color plaid, I could not find.)
The Grand Canyon had an assortment
The Ural Mountains remained gray
Antarctica was not worth the investment
The Coral Reef was gay
(Does plaid exist if I cannot see it?)
I looked with a bumble bee
Ultraviolet colors they see
I looked with a flea
Our red spectrum did not agree
(I think I am chasing rainbows.)
I looked in Alaska and Nebraska
Liberia, Algeria, Nigeria, Siberia
Daytona, Ramona, Barcelona, Arizona
Casablanca and even Sri Lanka
(Perhaps, plaid was instead a colour.)
I asked Plato
I asked Comte
Even Bacon
And Descartes
(I am looking in the wrong places; I'll start with 'Composition 10'.)
I considered granularity
The differences in energy levels
In electrons around atoms
All the theoretical possibilities
(How many physicists does it take to turn on a light bulb?)
I asked my professor
And he shooed me away
I phoned my mother
And she told me:
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Again and again :iconkatymoon05:katymoon05 1 0
Spider Jerusalem by akreon Spider Jerusalem :iconakreon:akreon 1,820 86
If truly there are infinite possibilities of every world there must be a parallel, just beyond reach, in which we walk these empty streets together, sleep entwined, awake unlonely. In this disconsolate universe, bereft of completion, devoid of love, I must believe that in our sister world we laugh, and love, and learn to weep, together. I trust that we are happy, my daemon lover and I, my fox-wolf, my beloved.
It is small consolation, my whimsical creation of this imaginary analogue, but I invite you, as I do, to believe. I must; lest my heart in this realm betray me.
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Rises And Sinks (like waves)
This is for the lonely
The ones that find, then they lose
Time turns to dust
Before you'll ever see like the blind
This one's for the torn down face
And the reconstruction surgery
Come on fiends get up now
We've got new legs now
You are not alone at all
And this part was for him
Don't pay no mind to the devils
They just fill you with fear
Remember you can make this place your home
That feeling
It rises and sinks
(in waves, it....)
This one's for the lost
The ones that are shocked
At where they arrived at
Regardless of their fright
This one's for believing faith
If only for it's sake
Come on friends get up now
Love has to be made
Never wished for
And this part was for her
This part was for him
This part was for her
Does she remember?
Could he remember?
It rises and sinks like waves,
I am only led to wonder why
It rises and sinks like waves
I am only led to wonder why
Why I try
This is for the ones who stand
For the ones who try again
For the ones who need a hand
For the ones who think t
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Courageous and Caring by TomPreston Courageous and Caring :icontompreston:TomPreston 1,823 235 Good Omens: Aziraphale and Crowley by VandorWolf Good Omens: Aziraphale and Crowley :iconvandorwolf:VandorWolf 245 43
Rage my oldest friend
Did you think I'd never see you again
I'm just a madman
sitting on my empire of ash and piss
I just miss
cigarette smoke
And the pain
In my lungs and veins
Idiot in my reflection
A little short of perfection
It's cold
And old
Monsters that devour your name
the fact of what is the matter
Is this past or present
That's leaving me behind
I fight each day
But I lose
A little in every way
I can see it
In your eyes
Guess that was my mistake
But I know
It's better than losing you
Out of gas and gin
Old scars
New stitches
Nine lives
Three wishes
Wasted them all away
For just a dream of yesterday
A sacrifice of myself
For you
I'll bleed
If only to keep you from going under
And only seeing every ghost
You ever made
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Their eyes by mikeytheblackmantis Their eyes :iconmikeytheblackmantis:mikeytheblackmantis 510 347 Warhammer 40k Aquila by Kladbische Warhammer 40k Aquila :iconkladbische:Kladbische 20 53 Sam Vimes by Merlkir Sam Vimes :iconmerlkir:Merlkir 393 95 Fallout 3: Virtue to Vice by PatrickBrown Fallout 3: Virtue to Vice :iconpatrickbrown:PatrickBrown 8,940 869 Just for this moment by katymoon05 Just for this moment :iconkatymoon05:katymoon05 2 0 Voice and Dagger by katymoon05 Voice and Dagger :iconkatymoon05:katymoon05 4 0 Dagger by katymoon05 Dagger :iconkatymoon05:katymoon05 3 0


Got really bored in algebra today. This is a work in progress. I think.

We've got big problems and it's time to start solving
Humanity, society, they've all stopped evolving
Someone has to fix it, get the world to move on
Or we'll keep messing up and we'll all soon be gone
Holes in the ozone, oil in the seas,
Plastics in the foods that they sell to you and me
Genocides in Africa, wars in Iraq,
We need to step forward so we stop sliding back
Cancers showing up, out of nowhere,
Irradiate the patient till he loses all his hair
Each religion wants to convert the other
Can't they see we're all sons of the same mother?
Forget about Allah or Moses or Christ
Siddown, have a drink, and TRY to act right!
Buddha got closest to the right idea
Be cool to each other while we're all still here
Corporations stealing from their employees
Bring me the heads of the CEO's, please
Snipers on the beltway, al-Qaeda in the air
People, be wary, but don't act scared
Seems like the real enemy might be the government
Far as I'm concerned they can all get bent!
Illegal immigration, abortion, drugs
Distractions from the real shit like illegal phone bugs!
There's no "bible code" and astrology is crap
Figure life out on your own or you're gonna get a slap
Credit card fraud and identity theft
We're morally bankrupy, sypmathy bereft!
Where did the people with honor all go?
For role models kids look to rappers, pimps, and hos!
I guess what I'm saying is that we need to change
Before all our chances are well out of range
and we end up no more than a nation deranged
With no hints of love, just a lifetime of pain.


United States
Current Residence: Under your bed. With a machete. I'm lazy, though, so it might help to run.
Favourite genre of music: Ska, Industrial, Techno... if it has a beat and isn't incredibly stupid, I can deal
Favourite style of art: Pontilism, Cubism, Splatter...
Operating System: Windows XP
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Shell of choice: WTF?
Favourite cartoon character: John Constantine
Personal Quote: "Somehow or other I'll be famous, and if not famous, I'll be notorious." -Oscar


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WinterRavenheart Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013
Thanks for the watch ;)
DrunkHobo-Stock Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2009  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the :+fav:
GuldorPhotography Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2009  Professional Photographer
Thanks for the watch :)
I will put new photo's online really soon so its a good thing you became a watch!
richten Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav :salute:
Cry4theDevil Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
so how ya doing man?
been awhile since i've heard from you.
Aisii Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2009  Professional
thanks for the watch :aww:
hawk5 Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2008  Professional General Artist
Thanks for the fav Alexander.
Chiziana Featured By Owner May 6, 2008

I've found you, Andarspam.

I promise, I wasn't looking for you. I put in a search for "Martial Arts" and when that didn't get what I wanted, I put in "Martial Artist" and it brought up your picture. And I was like "... that looks like Anderson... *click*... *enlarge* ... ... HOLYFUCK."
blacckard Featured By Owner May 11, 2008
"Martial Artist" my arse. I gotta stop letting nick put stuff on the profile for me.
Gee-Black-Parade Featured By Owner May 3, 2008
Thanks for the fave, it's nice :D !

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